I am very fat and I feel very disgusted with myself. At first, it was only whenever I saw the mirror. Now, it's like I don't even have to see the mirror and it's already disgusting enough. How bad is it huh.

I want to be thin. It makes me feel good. Previously, touch rugby was the one and only thing that made me feel good about myself - because I'm working out, exercising and shaking those flabs away, and also being together with a group of girls I totally adore. There were people for me to look up to, people like Derelyn, Brig, Vic, Dorothy, Jiayu. I wanted to be like them. Slim, smart and sporty. I used to not fit in any of those 3, till I came SR and joined touched and I became sporty for many months. Then now, I prohibited to play, thus eliminating the sporty side. I wasn't slim, I wasn't smart, and now, I can't be sporty. I am nothing now. The world is superficial. You need looks. You need to be thin in order to wear those beautiful apparrels on the magazines and look right. You need to be slim in order for people to look at you the right way.

I'm not even wanting to be pretty. I just want to be thin/slim or whatever shit. I wouldnt mind being stick thin, then I can eat all I want and expand to the correct size.

I need to do something to these tubs of oil. I could donate them to Saudi Arabia and they could probably increase the supply of oil significantly. Yup, that's a good idea.

fat thighs, fat tummy, flabby arms and no jawline. what more could I ask for?